Depression

yoshmaster5 · Post by **yoshmaster5** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 5:36 pm

From looking at the parent's topic, it seems to me numerous people here are depressed, me with them.

My parents discovered I was depressed, not myself. They noticed it when I was in the 4th grade. Immeditaly put on medicine. My dad's a psychyatrist *I can't spell* so he spotted it instantly.

anyone else here depressed?

yamijounouchi · Post by **yamijounouchi** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 6:48 pm

it's actually the weirdest thing: when i was in 6th-7th grade i was a depressed, angry, violent, evil little bastard; but now for some reason i'm not. i didn't need pills or anything, maybe somewhere along the line i just changed without knowing it.

Jonathan · Post by **Jonathan** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 7:08 pm

yamijounouchi wrote:it's actually the weirdest thing: when i was in 6th-7th grade i was a depressed, angry, violent, evil little bastard; but now for some reason i'm not. i didn't need pills or anything, maybe somewhere along the line i just changed without knowing it.

Really? I was an angry, evil little bastard myself in 7th grade. This boy pissed me off so much I stabbed him with a pencil in the shoulder. I got suspended and grounded for 4 months. Today, I'm perfectly fine. Wow, what a coincidence.

Usagi04 · Post by **Usagi04** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 7:21 pm

Well, in 7th grade, I was really depressed. I felt terrible, didn't want to do anything, have anything to do with anybody....among a lot of other issues.

It wasn't until recently, that I started to feel better.

Post by **Tiff** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 8:12 pm

I'm not diagnosed with depression, but i've had bouts of it, especially during the period with The Bastard. I went through a time where I hated myself, but it wasn't to the ponit that I wanted to die. I've NEVER been suicidal...rather, I wanted HELP...so I went to therapy for a little while to get past the point of self-blame, then I did the rest myself with some support from family, friends, and derek. I'm doing all right now, but every once in a while I slip into it..but I figure that's normal.

Cardcaptor Takato · Post by **Cardcaptor Takato** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 9:02 pm

I didn't start experience depression until this past year....Over the years, I've established myself as a generally happy person. People always expcet me to be the happiest person they know, but in reality, I'm not. I've always had a hard time telling people what I'm feeling and what's on my mind, so I keep everything bottled up inside me. I often make lots of mistakes and it makes me upset when I do, but I never tell anyone about it and I try to grin and bear it.

Since I kept letting all of this bottle up inside, it's started to get to me this past year and it makes me upset often....I tend to think I don't do anything right and I don't have any special talents or anything and I don't have the most popular interests. In fact, I try to stay away from the popular interests, but sometimes I wish I was more popular. When I'm out in public and around large crowds, I don't want people to notice me and then sometimes I do want them to notice me and that makes me feel like a hypocrite. I'm too much of a coward to try anything like cutting myself or jumping, but I have tried choking myself...I always end up stopping before I get too far, anyway. I have told my parents about it and you know the results of what happened from my parents thread, so I won't talk about it here. Anyway, that's my story on my depression.

Anthy · Post by **Anthy** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 10:55 pm

I, myself, suffered with some sort of depression some years ago, when my home and school lives were tumoltuous. My therapist wanted to put me on some pill, but fuck if I would have that! Honestly, it's just too easy to shove pills in your mouth rather than try to work and improve yourself, which is what I try to do. Not that I'm saying everyone who takes pills is lazy; I'm saying depression is just too easily "fixed" like that, instead of looking at the real problem.

My "signs" or ways of dealing with my personal shit were (and sometimes are) eating mass amounts of food, sleeping it away, smoking, burning myself, and suicide attempts here and there. I know how that feels--where the light at the end of the tunnel is the oncoming train, and I feel badly for the people who go through that. But I bounce back and don't take bullshit from myself very often. Instead of getting sad, I get pissed--and anger makes for fast treadmill running. Instead of shoving a finger down my throat, it's much more fun to show the unfriendly finger to everything that threatens to get me down.

MonkeyDLuffy · Post by **MonkeyDLuffy** » Wed Apr 28, 2004 11:59 pm

I havn't been diagnosed with depression, mostly because I keep it to myself. But I had it bad in middle school. Horrible times. That, and then the stress I had was not making my days happy. I also felt ignored by my family when I started to get straight A's in 8th grade, but my parents were too busy patting my brother on the head for his C's in college -_- Then, I stopped trying hard in school, which leaves me still above a 3.0 GPA, but my parents still ignore me.

Then art really helped releive stress, depressional evenings, and the rage I get. Only few people know my dark side, because I have a totally different personality at school. People see me as optomistic, quiet, and a little shy. But really, I am very negative, hate myself, and don't care what people I don't know think.

I never thought it was important to go into anything serious about me to take any pills or a phsyciatrist, plus that's more money that we don't have to be spent.

I feel kind of restricted in my feelings I can express around family. And then my family telling me to "Act normal" when we are at family meetings makes me feel EVER SO HAPPY! -_-

jupiter23 · Post by **jupiter23** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 11:27 am

It seems for a lot of you, your depression came in the Junior High/Middle School Years. I saw some Barbara Walters interview on ABC once that was talking about something like this. She mentioned that kids are going to be cruelest to each other in Junior High School, causing more mental problems among Junior High Age students. For many of you, you didn't need medication, and that is good, because many of you who said you weren't on medication, most of the depression just passed on its own. For those of you suffering with depression, just remember there are people in this world who care about you, even though you may only know them on a computer screen.

yoshmaster5 · Post by **yoshmaster5** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 2:40 pm

Yeah... It can help to see other people have depression.

Mine came differently. I think I've already said what happened with me... mine is Mental Depression, that still stays with me to this day. happened in 4th grade instead of Middle School.

jupiter23 · Post by **jupiter23** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 3:47 pm

Your case is an actual medical problem. I'm not saying the rest of you don't have it, but there are people that will claim to have it just to get attention, or so they can get put on drugs they don't need. But those that seem to have depression in Junior High and that was when they got it may just be in a bad social setting and this leads them to belive that noone cares about them, leading into a case of something like depression. Theirs is not totally a medical problem and can be fixed in easier ways.

ChillerXZ · Post by **ChillerXZ** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 4:34 pm

I was depressed in 7th grade...and part of 8th... I never wanted to do anything or have anything to do with anybody.... I didn't have any friends....i just felt really down all the time... it wasn't until this year until I started feeling any better

yamijounouchi · Post by **yamijounouchi** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 5:01 pm

i know the feeling.

RoastedTwinkies · Post by **RoastedTwinkies** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 6:42 pm

I haven't been "officially" diagnosed with depression, but because my dad is a social worker and the short studies we did on it in school (that's because 12 years ago I think, a grade 12 student in our school was suffering from depression and committed suicide) I was able to recognize it right away. My depresssion came as a sudden onset towards the end of the first semester of grade 11; December 2002. I don't know why, but I tend to feel happier during the winter months and worse during the spring and fall months. (People usually feel worse during the winter months) I'm sad, angry and bitter, mainly because of family problems that are far too personal to discuss on this board. It's been difficult for me because my parents can't afford councelling and I'm not on any anti-depressants of any kind.

Choc · Post by **Choc** » Thu Apr 29, 2004 6:59 pm

I've never been diagnosed, but I was severly depressed in middle school. I contemplated suicide, and even wrote a will and showed it to my mother. I didn't really talk to anybody and had no friends. (I still don't, but because of a personal choice rather than shyness or anything relating to that.) I'm pretty much happy now. I don't know whay...perhaps because of the new environment I'm in. (I changed schools.)

Celexa · Post by **Celexa** » Fri Apr 30, 2004 7:54 pm

I'm also diagnosed with depression, and I take Celexa for it. (What, you think I made my penname up?!) but the odd thing is, I'm a really cheery, hyper, I-think-I'll-fall-over-the-chair-to-amuse-everyone type of person. I would cry sometimes for no reason, and I'd be rather dark, but I don't think I ever hated myself. I'm guessing it's a mild case. One thing that was frusturating though, was I'd cry over the littlest things and couldn't stop. I would, say, get told that the answer I had was wrong in class, and I would start tearing up. If someone just snickered at me for a certain reason, I would cry and cry and couldn't stop. My friends would all ask me what was wrong and feel so bad, which made me feel bad because it wasn't their fault.

Just to note, I got diagnosed around 3rd-4th grade.

peachvampiress · Post by **peachvampiress** » Sat May 01, 2004 11:31 pm

What are the symptoms of Depression? I know that their's stuff like low energy, losing interest in things, and being anti-social. I'm none of those, but feel upset a lot and do some pretty outragious things when upset. I used to go to the school counseller after I started scratching myself in Socials class two years ago, but now my counseller's been in a car accident and hasn't been back for a year.

Anthy

My therapist wanted to put me on some pill, but fuck if I would have that! Honestly, it's just too easy to shove pills in your mouth rather than try to work and improve yourself, which is what I try to do.

Amen sistah. I refuse to take any kind of medication.

Also, what is manic depression? I think I sort of know what it is, and I think I might be it, but I'm not sure.

I used to be suicidal, but something happened that not only helped me get better, it completely changed my life. I'm not sure if I should say it here because:
-it's a long long story
-I think a lot of people will think I'm weird, lying, or retarded for what made me better.

Akarui Kibuno · Post by **Akarui Kibuno** » Sun May 02, 2004 4:30 am

Just to tell you, I don't think anyone will think you're lying or anything like that. I don't think people here would allow themselves to think such a thing of you, if you trust us enough to share your story with us

As for myself, haven't been officially diagnosed either. But there are sooooo many times when I have felt down, not really wanting to die but wanting to get away from everything, in a place where I'd be left alone. Times when I felt I was crap, and when my Dad said I was crap too. *you wouldn't want a Dad like that. I even wonder how I can call him Dad u_u*

My solution lies in the arms of my boyfriend. Though I'm most of the time all happy and hyper, because I'm trying to convince myself that there's still something good to get out there, there have been times when I wished it was all over. And he was there, getting me "out of the dark" ( ^^;;;;;;;; ) and kinda, saving me. Pushing me to do my best, and so on.

I don't think the depression moments will stop forever, but at least, now I know there is at least someone believing in me. Took twenty years to find him, but I guess I'm pretty lucky after all ^^;

Sailorasteroid · Post by **Sailorasteroid** » Sun May 02, 2004 8:47 am

peachvampiress wrote:Also, what is manic depression? I think I sort of know what it is, and I think I might be it, but I'm not sure.

A friend of mine has manic depression, which is also called bipolar disorder. She'll have a couple of months being manic, and then switch to depression for a couple of months. When she's depressed, she doesn't want to do anything and is very pessemistic. She does get suicidal sometimes, and she lives alone, so I worry about her, but she does have a lot of friends and family.

When she gets manic, she'll want to do many things, but can't focus on any one thing for any length of time. She writes poetry and does artwork, things like that. I know of people who will throw themselves into work and hobbies to keep themselves manic and avoid depression.

My friend has been prescribed medicine, but says that if she takes it, she feels perpetually ill and weak. Since she would have to take it all her life, she prefers just to live with the manic depression.

FoxFire · Post by **FoxFire** » Mon May 03, 2004 1:35 am

I have been prone to depression for quite some time now. I'm not sure what I've been diagnosed with, but I was on Zoloft for a brief period when I was 15-16 and I'm pretty sure you need to be diagnosed with something in order to get that perscription. I stopped taking Zoloft after about a year because I didn't feel it was having an effect on me.

It gets better and worse for me at times, but the worst bout that I had was 2 years ago. I never shared it with anything but I know that some people could pick up on it. My mom asked me if I was mad at her at one point. I never got suicidal to the point where I was almost ready to go through with it, but I thought about it as a possible option so often that I ended up bookmarking this website on my computer. I've chosen to keep it bookmarked as a reminder to myself.