It's weird to see something so big enter something so little.Akarui Kibuno wrote:Oh, I see this thread hasn't died. Me's happy, it didn't turn into what we could have thought it would! Yayy!
With that said, it's been quite a long time since I posted that thread, and things have changed for me.
Right now, I can't see an adult movie without being extremely disturbed. I sometimes cry. I don't know what exactly happened: one day, I was on the comp, Boyfriend put one on, and I cried, and I couldn't look at one ever since.
I didn't decide to hate those movies... I didn't decide not to look at "those kind of pics" or anything like that. Not that I looked at magazines from the beginning cause most of what I had seen so far was very very disgusting, yuck.
The thing is, since I am not morally against it and my boyfriend sometimes would watch it (though it's funny cause he watches it as he'd watch the news XD ... aka, it doesn't impress him) I thought I'd "try" again. Aka, little by little, I'd either have a quick glance at the screen or something like that.
It still "isn't working". I'm not forcing myself at all, but it "feels weird" in a way: I used to enjoy it when it was decent, now I can't deal with it at all, it physically makes me sick.
o.o ... I really wonder what happened back then, lol.
Those poor women.